One of the constant criticism I have been subjected to since I could remember anything is that I needed to grow up. And stop being a kid. And this statement has been made so very often that I had stopped taking this as a criticism and started believing that it was an absolutely natural part of my self.

Of late, I think I have started taking this slightly more seriously. And probably because it was coming from people really close to me. And probably because I started thinking that they actually wanted me to change.. wanted me to grow up!

So, I was wondering what is it about me that made so many people around me believe that I never grew up..

Is it because I cannot help finding the funnier side in almost everything that happened around me? [As far as I remember, I dont remember rubbing on anybody's wrong side while trying to exercise my most grown sense... the sense of humour that is.]

Or is it because I express almost everything that I feel. [ Quite explicitly animated expression at times. It was something that was definitely debated very often. I have always believed so much in expression... and I agree I do go overboard a lot of times becuase it does not really matter to me what it meant to the 3rd party who did not quite understand the context... Cant help it. I dont want to die without telling what I felt about them. By hook or by crook :)]

Or is it simply because I am just too dependent on some people. [Hmmmm.. Most frequently quoted reason. But funny I have this strange concept of showin my affection to people by becoming dependent on them. I mean if I tell you that I am quite incomplete without you being around.. its quite a compliment, ain't it?]

Or it could quite be because I consider that being emotional is quite normal [ I mean as long as you are mature enough to not embarass anybody I think its fine.. Btw, quite contratory to popular beliefs, I think quite highly of my maturity levels :).. and have some good reasons to think so. Can discuss in detail offline :)]

Or does it have anything to do with my funny histronics. [Actually this has been the most basic reason. But I think its an offshoot of one of the aforementioned reasons. So no comments really.]

There might be a few other reasons also but these I think are definitely the top 5 in the list.

And despite my arguments against the 'allegations' [statements in the braces above :)],  I think today I appreciate every reason cited above.

Do I agree to them? Well, I am not sure. But I am sure that as of now, I dont have the confidence to carry those histrionics off the way I used to. Probably that is very much the start of what some people call 'growing up' :)..